Ego or Ambition?

August is here and I’ve spent all summer preparing for this next school year.  School ended on June 13th, and on the 14th I was already scouring Twitter and racking my brain for ways to improve as a teacher.  I am always striving to be better and challenging myself to be creative and awesome and never fall in the cruise control rut that so many teachers can fall in.  I can’t even begin to tell you how excited I am for school to start in the next couple of weeks.  However, with all of that excitement comes some nervousness.  I’m nervous because I’m doing things rather differently this year.  My class will be based on a self-paced, mastery-based model.  I will also be implementing 20% Time with a focus on community improvement.  Seating arrangements are different.  My schedule is different.  I could go on and on about me being nervous, but I should get to the point of this post.  I am most nervous because I have enrolled in an Admin Credential program.

Let me now explain the title of this post.  I am only entering my 7th year of teaching, but over the past year I started to have such a passion for education that I started spending more time researching education instead of focusing on my content area of history.  Don’t get me wrong, I still love teaching history.  However, I started having a feeling of “I want to do something bigger.” I felt that I was destined to do something big with my growing passion in the field of education.  When I told a colleague this, I felt arrogant saying it.  Like teachers aren’t a big deal.  They are.  We are.  Am I being egotistic thinking that I am destined for something bigger?  I don’t know.  I don’t know if it’s egotistic or ambitious.  Regardless, I feel passionate about education and I would like to try to have a bigger impact.  Therefore, I enrolled in the Admin program and I’m going to do it.  I am nervous as hell and don’t know what to expect.  It’s a great feeling!